Re: Senecio adn Tide II

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As if trying to return her honesty, even though it seemed hard for him, Conrad finally slowly raised his look, his gaze holding just a little bit of puzzlement.
" Whether it is mild or intense, light is still light. Svarik is just Svarik, and the frustration, worry and exasperation he brought me are equal to the joy I felt with him, just like sun can equally be something that soothes you or blinds your eyes. I don't have particular preferences, in what kind of intensity of emotion I am hoping he shows me for the day, so I am not sure how helpful I can be... Whether day is sunny or cloudy, if the sun is there, then it was a worthwhile day in my eyes. I have no doubts, if we were apart for a few months, that our first meeting would be intense, just like I have no doubt, if you keep living together with him each day, that mild warmth would come naturally. But I have no clue... what you find so enviable about my situation, " he tried to maintain eye contact, as if trying to understand better by observing her expression, but while collected, Lipka could see his eyes were full of quiet sadness. " I am nothing more than an overqualified aide, and underqualified partner... All I can do is work behind the scenes to the bone, so his load is a little lighter, but I can never be in the same room as him where there are important people, when things are actually done. I can speak with him as we decide what to do, but I can never be with him while he is fighting to pass what we have chosen. What am I, than someone whose schedule will never quite match his? If while he is working in courtroom, I am working on drawing documents and motions here in the mansion and feeding him information and answers through Simbel, can we call that working together, if all we are doing is working on similar things at the same times? I have no qualifications to be by his side... but you have. There are no set rules on what future queen's power could be, so situation is perfect for setting precedents. Since emperors had no empresses, what Queen can do will largely depend on authority King gives you, so with just a bit of basic learning, you can easily spend every day in the council at his side. Councilors can't even pull a card of you being uneducated woman from countryside not fit enough to be queen, when Svarik's education is no better than yours. I would have been so happy, if having a place there next to him is something I could get only if I worked terribly hard, but you don't even have to work that hard. A moderate amount of starting knowledge so that you can learn alongside Svarik would be perfectly serviceable. You can have even more time, if you follow his pace, and study along with him, so you can keep improving at the same speed, and spend time learning same things, from same books, from same tutors... You have the whole scene set for you, all you have to do is walk on the stage, " he tilted his head sadly. " As his queen, you can literally walk in and have justification to be by his side, wherever he is, while I can only ever wait for him to come looking for me, because I can't be seen looking for him, whether as a current underground Leader or former traitor. I am skilled, but nothing that I know isn't something that you can't learn decently, so nothing that I can help him with isn't something you can't help him with along the way. The grass is always greener on the other side, so sure, it is fine if you envy me on something... but please, let it not be my position. My position is the least enviable part of my relationship with Svarik, not a feature...  "

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" Your cute God is included too, of course. When else will I get the chance to make clothes for such a vibrant cotton candy? " Alpha chuckled, but he narrowed his eyes and leaned closed to him, whispering conspiratorially. " Still, don't you think I am too overqualified, for the main thing to ask of me to merely make it gorgeous? Or is it just that you do not trust them enough to ask more for their sake? " unlike Janus, who was brimming with more down to earth generosity, even if he were abundantly giving, Alpha much more resembled mischievous helpers in fairy tales, at least judging by the clear playfulness and pleasure he got out of asking Svarik about vampires in front of some of the said vampires, who seemed uncertain and unsure if the talk is for their ears, trying to keep cutting the fruits to make themselves smaller to not trouble him. "Discouraging as it is that you do not wear them yet, I did make you and your cute friend such over the top high quality clothes... How easy do you think it is, to make clothing that won't tear even when slashed once or twice with most of Being swords? Alas, it is my toll in life to bear, that I make clothes so good that people prefer to use them on special occasions when their functions are clearly tuned for everyday safety.  Unlike the two of you, your dramatic God entourage is quite docile - I have a feeling they will wear what I make for them diligently. But in front of the best Tailor one can find on this side of the Fabric - would mere beauty and protection from the sun satisfy you, little sugar? When it comes to creating defences for our neat sea kingdom, you know our local inventor's role well - but I am the second core member, I will have you know. Boring as it is, when it comes to Beings weak enough to not be able to properly protect themselves, deals I most often make are for more protective clothes. Sure, you can still get bruised and your head can be cut off if you don't shield your neck and face, and it can't hold out forever under heavy slashes, but there are two things I most often weave - heavy protection, and warning runes so that if blood is spilled upon the clothes, I am notified so I can be aware that help is required. I am sure our cute mechanic already spoke to you of his safety suggestions - so what are your feelings, of the double-edged sword that I am tempting you with? " The creature was grinning with mischievous interest, thriving in the little chaos he was cooking up.  " On one hand, would it not be lovely, if Demon Hunters came, you could turn definite deaths if they get slashed, into possible survivals? On the other hand, if you trust them too little, both giving them protection from sun, easing of their half-blind state when the sun is strong, and making it so that they are much harder to kill when they wear those clothes, would be giving them quite a lot more independence compared to now. Enhanced freedom and loosened chains increase how much they can hurt you should they betray you. Oh, my, decisions, decisions... What decision is my cute kindling leaning towards? Giving them more to raise their chances of survival, or giving them less to keep them more dependent and less likely to go against you? "

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Tide's heart was beating a little quicker with Senecio's explanation, and he seemed a little in a daze, not responding right away, as if savoring the words, and not saying anything until he collected his thoughts.
" My feelings... are so much bigger, " His pace got a little slower, as he spoke up. " In a way that the glass of my joy seems so full that it is always in danger of overflowing, so I must constantly sip from it, for if it gets full, I will break down and cry, " he whispered, so very quietly and shyly pouring his heart. " I was so afraid when you gained ability to perceive feelings, that you would be unsettled by the way hunger entwines in my senses and realize just how inhuman I am behind my human shape. But it just went so well, that I don't know what to do with myself. Most of my relationships felt like gruelling work of trying to build a sturdy wall, and always being anxious if it would topple over if I made a mistake. This one... feels like making a painting by throwing thousands of colours on a canvas, without any worries about shapes or harmony, only the fun of it all. I have no idea what I am doing, and I am afraid of making a misstep and pouring colours you hate unknowingly, but you are always so honest and direct that despite it all, I can't help but feel a little more confident... "