Re: Senecio adn Tide II

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Conrad did not reply right away though, biting his lip a little, as if trying to wrap his mind around Lipka's suggestion, his expression growing more conflicted.
" If that is your condition for feeling more secure in this relationship... I will follow it," he sighed resignedly, as if mentally preparing himself, while looking down anew and fiddling with the pen. " I fear it may not look like it, but I really do want us to get along... You have no idea, how terribly tiring and worn out it feels, living every day double questioning the meaning behind every word others say in order to not be manipulated or betrayed, always being on the lookout for being poisoned, always having to balance opposing interests not to turn tentative allies into enemies... I can not afford to have the only relationship I have that is pure from such anxieties tainted by them. But I do not understand, what is it that you are asking me to avoid, to not make you miserable or mad, so how can I comply when I don't understand specifics? " he asked quietly, admitting very slowly and trying his best to maintain a neutral tone, though not quite succeeding. " I understand spending more time separately and as a group in general, to get a better understanding of each other, and it's not like I was hoping for some extravagant hanging outs, when I myself can't even go outside anywhere but in the garden during limited hours, or at night. Most of the time we are together shortly, we would probably spend time learning things, reading books, and I guess perhaps playing board games... it is not like my limits allow us too much more than indoor activities. But... further from capital and in less public settings, my limits are fewer, and... There is a Ball at sea, that is planned soon, for Beings and humans tied to Beings. Originally, three of us were to go, but since we borrowed the bag for quick travel, we thought... all four of us could go. Tide's Beings are generally tolerable and like interesting things, so it should be right to dance and play music for anyone willing to dance and play... I... was sort of planning to play love songs for Melody and Svarik, and to dance with them, and to feed them a lot of their favourite sweets... " he was he was rubbing his hands absentmindedly, looking rather withdrawn and distant, as he asked carefully. " I mean... unless he is an absolute fool, there's no way Svarik wouldn't have wanted to dance and play you songs, too... so is it possible to have some leeway for that day? Besides it, to be honest... I am not sure what are exact things you hope for me to abstain from. It is not like I want to be overbearing... I am just not sure what I should aim for, to not make you mad. I.. just want to hold him, make sure he is warm and comfortable, make him safe, and feed him lot of delicious things... " he shook his head as if he were having a headache. " The line between friendship and romance... feels incredibly blurry, with both him and Melody. IWhat among things I do for or with them isn't friendly, but likewise, meant for a partner, is it not all romantic, actually? Everything with them is always drenched in warmth and sentimentality, so it is hard to put a name to it... Is it an intense friendship, or excessive romance? if it's all romance, it's rather awkward... when you take out hugs, snacks, gifts, I might as well just sit down all of you guys at a table in the reading room, and just give you a crash course of basic nobleman knowledge and etiquette for a few weeks, so there are no grey areas to break head over... "

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" My... own guard... ? " Simbel's eyes shook, and he spoke wonderingly, as if only now it actually reached him that this was what Svarik was offering him - he was so preoccupied by the thought he can keep them and protect them at his side, that only now it dawned on him that Svarik actually offered him to form a guard of his own, something he did not have since White Eagle knights left him. He seemed starstruck for a moment, so much so that even vampires were surprised to see him so openly touched and sentimental. " That... The choice... should be theirs first, of course, not mine. I wouldn't want to decide by myself as if they are not people, as I did not... dare offer them any hope yet before I figure out if there's anything I can do. I... did not know I had a weight in this choice. But the choice should be on people, not on God. It had been terribly bad experience for them, serving the Bull, for me to force another would-be God down their throats, so they should be able to refuse and still go to Liron's realm if they wish to.  But if they agree... " he turned his head to the vampires that were present, and not able to control his expressions that well yet, he could not stop himself, and he gave them a dazzling wide smile, one that reached his eyes and was so warm it felt like it could melt ice, one that made them teary and shaken up all the more, to them, who never saw Tarmagil smile at them. " I want to ask this of you. My Sun... May you first give me a little time before I reply to you, until the evening? So that I can gather them all and discuss the situation with them, so they can make informed decision? " despite his nurturing and protective determination, he clearly desired to take proper responsibility, especially since they were so hurt with their previous interaction with religion. " Staying is not without its dangers, so I can not insist they should stay before I present them with the whole picture. But once I talk with them and hear their answer, I will return to you with a question... Then, if all goes well, I will ask you... "


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Despite it took a while, there was lot of fun and fulfillment in seeing good results, and thought tired from lot of work, Hans seemed quite pleased. Even more so, as work was coming to an end, he was clearly feeling more excited, but for different reason - since Tide already spoiled it and told Senecio the two of them prepared little homecoming gifts for him, it was clear Spirit was looking forward to giving him his gift.

Indeed, once Senecio said work was done, Spirit and Demon sat down on either side of the bed, and each of them summoned one small box, that appeared in their hands. Hans's box was decorated with extremely expensive and lavish silver ribbons from famous local merchant, while Tide's had shiny blue ribbons, and handrawn countless little hearts on the box - both clearly reflecting their personalities and sincerities.
With excitement, Hans explained that they prepared little something to celebrate their little success.
" It's just simple decor, we tried to keep the scale as small as possible, but we had to get you something for such a big occasion, " Tide coughed, his cheeks quite red, as if he were rather unsure and shy now that it came to it, as he explained, timidly turning his box. " Which would you like to open first? Mine is more of a cute homemade thing, while Han's is more of a cute expensive thing, so it is fine if you open either first.. "
" Oh, and it's fine if you don't like them, too, " Hans chipped in brightly. " We're going to spoil you rotten, anyway, so it's fine if not every gift is a win, as long as you give honest feedback so we can pick better in the future. "