Re: Svarik and the company II

[VisAnastasis]

" Don't spew such silly marshmallow talk at me, mister... It's the silliness, talking out of you. " Tide chuckled a little, and he seemed flustered as he gave himself freedom to tousle his hair lightly, on most endearing, almost childish way. " You don't have to give me anything, in returns of home. That's how the whole family things work. We share good and the bad. We provide best we can for one another, and when we can't provide, well, yeah, I guess we make plays along the roads for coins, if we even sink that low. " Tide winked a bit. " But it's not like a bank loan... It doesn't imply you have to meet any criteria, if you're to hold on to that safety and keep it. It's love unrequited. But if you desire to return it, well... Free tickets are nothing to frown upon... If I dare suggest, throw in some free compliments and free hugs, and I can be content, with that. " he said warmly. " I just don't want you to feel it's something you have to constantly fight to maintain... you don't have to prove yourself... or bring glory to my name or whatnot... Just be the best person you can be and make something happy and jolly out of your life, and I'll be proud of you, okay? "

[Mirach]

Senecio was momentarily at a loss for words. "That... That's the best thing that anyone has ever given me..."

[VisAnastasis]

His reaction seemed to make Tide beam,  and it seemed to make some last shades from the heavy night fade as they melted into a blissful tender smile.
" Your happiness is a balm for my soul. .." he exclaimed proudly, and in a flicker of emotions, he chuckled and he leaned  forth a bit, and kissed his forehead and brushed his head anew, a gesture of affection warm, innocent and protective - really  fit gor a self proclaimed mom-friend.

[Mirach]

Senecio accepted the gesture with affection. "So how about a dessert now?" he asked.

[VisAnastasis]

" I think... that I could really enjoy a dessert right now. I am still very hungry. " critter smiled a little, as he slowly loosened and ended embrace, so he could gather their things. " I'd enjoy getting down to it, I deem, even more, like this... " he said innocently, as he leaned with his hand to the actor with carrying gesture, indicating he'd like to carry him down in his arms, like he brought him up.

[Mirach]

"I could climb down on my own..." Senecio smiled a little. "But it's nice that I don't have to."

[VisAnastasis]

" It is my pleasure that it's nice for you. That makes it so much more immensely pleasant for me... Why climb down if I can climb for us both, dearest child?  " creature exclaimed, and picked him up tenderly, to carry him down.

[Mirach]

Senecio enjoyed being held in the demon's arms, the contrast of their strength and gentleness still immensely fascinating him.

[VisAnastasis]

Demon in turn seemed to immensely enjoy his relaxation and peacefulness in his hold, soothed by the way he accepted his touch so naturally. After he put his mask back on and they took basket with things, he softly leaped in the air, to the garden. He carried him along through some lovely parts of it, and he then led him to the house. They made a short stop in kitchen anew, to leave empty things from their meal, and then creature carried him up the stairs gently, indeed, with lot of soft tender care, seeming as if he's tryly seeking to make up with his gentleness, for skinning his heart so roughly last night. He walked smoothly, as if stepping on eggshells, so he wouldn't stir the actor - and he only ever hesitantly and thoughfully stopped before the doors of man's room, as if stopped by some invisible obstacle.

[Mirach]

"Could I go ahead?" Senecio asked. "I would like to check if everything is in place first..."

[VisAnastasis]

" I.. Am a little nervous. " critter admitted " I keep thinking... about how much you and Erdel tried for this, and how I made you both sad and cry... I feel so bad, that I did not act as you wanted me to. " he gulped, as he gently lowered Senecio down to the ground. " I really... don't want to spoil this any further, at least, for you, even if I did spoil it for Erdel so much... So, please, by all means, dear... Go ahead... "

[Mirach]

"Then I would like you to stop feeling bad about it," Senecio said. "It is your present. Forget what me or Erdel were thinking, and just see if you maybe like it. If not, then nothing happens. I don't want you to pretend what you don't feel, alright?"

[VisAnastasis]

Tide nodded a little faintly, appreciating his words and letting them soothe him, despite he didn't feel much encouraged, feeling pressured to like it, if not for Erdel whom he felt he already ruined it for, at least for Senecio who would be watching his reaction.

" I will try to not to worry and relax more... But I am sorry... I am indeed, a mom friend.. heh... " creature responded vulnerably. " And that's what mom friends do... Praise every of its kids macaroni drawings. I guess I am just a little... wistful... because I feel I would have otherwise really adored and been pleasantly surprised with this macaroni drawing... had it not been... like this. Last time I sow Erdel, he left the kitchen crying, and then in the morning, I made you cry too. " creature's voice trembled. " It's hard to be happy, thinking about that... But I want to try, for you... "

[Mirach]

"If it helps, I don't have to watch," Senecio said. "I actually feel a bit nervous, like when you was writing the letter... I will just go check if everything is ready, and you can decide in that time." He then went to see if some decirations did not slide from their places, and returned in a while.

[VisAnastasis]

In meantime, Tide was thinking about the gift, trying to figure out what he would really want to and what would make it easier, standing aside at the door, leaning on wall, vulnerable and thoughtful.

[Mirach]

"Macaroni drawing is ready," Senecio said, hoping to help him relax a little with joking. 

[VisAnastasis]

Tide couldn't help but chuckle up a little with the joke, it loosening him up a bit, and giving him more courage to ask the following.
" I would like you to come with me... But there's something else... That I think would help me feel better about this... " he said slowly, as if he was trying not to step on some nerve. " I just... It's hard to say it... Because you've been quite touchy. I fear if I said it, you'd again get those silly ideas, that I am not into you or whatnot... " he said shyly, but despite trying to sound reasonable and neutral, Senecio could feel a flicker of longing in his voice. " I do adore you, but... is not a man allowed to... have fun with friends, too? " he bid vulnerably, with little tender smile. " Without it implying he's secretly not really as honestly and passionately into his amazing boyfriend? "

[Mirach]

"Yes, that's alright," Senecio nodded. "But I'm not sure what you are thinking about..."

[VisAnastasis]

" I would like... to talk to Erdel... see if he'd be wiling to come join us. He did work hard on it too, and desired to see me happy as well, and instead, all he got is sadness... I would have felt wrong, if I'd exclude one of my kids and pretended I am perfectly fine partying only with the other... For he is my friend, and a child even more than you, and I desire him happiness. " creature gulped vulnerably and longingly. " But I don't feel safe with that desire.... If always whenever I'm doing anything with or for someone well mannered and nice, you would feel like I'm trying to find a better partner. Just today, you run away from me in tears just when I said you're not pretty - And I... never even said I had a thought of breaking up. I just don't still quite know what to think about it... "

[Mirach]

"You said that I am not handsome *to you*," Senecio murmured, still feeling some pain when remembering the words. "That... sounded very much like breakup to me... But I am not jealous anymore. I would like to call Erdel."

[VisAnastasis]

" I said those words... out of hurt. I did not mean them, like that. I just had no other way to express... The hurt. The way you evaded my look, and the way that light was gone from your eyes, when you'd look at me at all... I just had no other way to explain how it felt. " creature whispered vulnerably. " I did not mean to make you feel so... I can be impulsive, when I am overwhelmed... But it's only my foolishness, not your flaw, when I do... " he murmured thoughtfully, as he as gazing thoughtfully in direction of Svarik's room where Erdel was, hesitantly, as if gathering courage too.

[Mirach]

"It's alright," Senecio said quietly. "It was a misunderstanding. Let's not speak about it anymore, and call Erdel, okay?"

[VisAnastasis]

" For what it's worth, if you'd like me to paraphrase, I think I have better words. " creature offered shyly and vulnerably - maybe a little to delay unpleasant apology to Erdel for few seconds more, but seeming not being able to help add in any case, as it shyly took freedom to brush lad's sleeve. " I can't say you're pretty to me, anymore.... But you sure as hell are perfect for me. " he teased, leaning toward him longingly and innocently, not seeming to miss the chance to flirt.

[Mirach]

"Thank you..." Senecio said earnestly. "Should I go to call Erdel?"

[VisAnastasis]

" Maybe.. If you can... " creature accepted the offer earnestly as well. " I am very ashamed, for feeling it'd be appropriate to have denied him. I would be happier, if you'd be ever so kind, to... call him instead... "