Senecio adn Tide II

[VisAnastasis]

" I do not think Eros hates you for it, either. In this particular case, I mean... even without any power to perceive feelings, I could see you wanted to cut conversation about advice short even before it got any serious, even with my plan eyes. Even if just based on my eyesight if I were him, maybe I'd want to remove myself from the unpleasant situation, " Tide whispered, a little more grounded as he spoke - and despite his current infatuation was to Senecio, as he spoke of Eros, the actor could feel an unquestionable tingle of attraction, warmth and thankfulness. " He... really understands how it is to feel unloved. That's why he always does his best for people around him not to feel the same. I really am not an insanely physical creature... but when I feel like being comforted or taught more, and I have really bad days, I come to him, sometimes... He taught me a lot of things others like, and also some things I didn't think I would like... " he admitted quietly, as he was slowly steading himself for his next choice in the game, and it seemed, this time, it was influenced with Senecio's uncertainty over his new perception, as he continued slowly. " There is one thing I figured I liked. I may have in my flesh instincts of a predator, but also, I have the deeply instilled feelings of the prey, that acts more strongly, more intimate and vulnerable I am before somebody. After all, every part of what I am now was once dismembered fiercely and eaten up by another part of me, " he whispered, with the same flushed face revealing more of his unusual state of existence. " That is why... Enjoying being handled most intimately is very hard for me, if it's too sudden. It is an instinct of prey to expect the worst. I need lot of mental preparation to slowly work up to it. So, discovering things I enjoy is not easy... For example... there is one nice thing. I do like everything to start slowly, with lot of touches, but also... I like... when... the other person bites me back. Not everywhere, but at some places. It.. is a response from being a prey, too. When I feel like I am being eaten up, but not really... it is like with the roles we give when we play. There is... some thrill and excitement when you feel it's a little bit dangerous, even when you know it's not... " he explained, although each word was a struggle to admit, it seemed creature genuinely, deeply wanted to share some of things like those, things that were clearly marking him as inhuman, and seek an honest reaction to them. " But it's only something I've enjoyed with Eros so far. Hans... is too playful, so I tense up and get too frightened to continue enjoying it. Eros, on the other hand, always follows people's paces well. His ability to perceive your feelings as they are forming... is really useful when it comes to closeness. Even when I like something, I can be tense if things are escalating too fast... so he knows when to go faster, and when to slow down. So, I am just saying... It's not necessarily... a discomforting thought. That you could also learn to be really perceptive of other's pace... I guess there will be a learning curve to it... "

[Mirach]

Senecio straightened a bit, looking intrigued by that. "When you put it like that..." he said slowly. "I guess there are some uses... and it would need some practice, of course. Damn it, this talk is making me want to disobey medical advice."

[VisAnastasis]

" Me too... I have never wanted to disobey Eros more in my entire life... " Being admitted, indeed, and Senecio could feel in practice, just how insanely good Tide's self-control was - by the overwhelming feelings, if he wasn't so responsive to a fault, he would already be all over actor. " Still... I like this game... I feel like, in this state of mutual attraction, and when it is a game, I can say things I normally wouldn't dare... So let's stretch it just a little bit more... " he requested, gulping, trying to keep his head clearer, and failing even more clearly. " Now I have two things, and you have one... I am really proud of my tame sheepish humanish image, so this last guilty pleasure was tough to admit, so I am curious what you'll consider equal value... I would really like to know what things you also secretly enjoy but are hesitant to say... "

[Mirach]

"Well... that's a bit hard because I'm not that secretive about it, am I? You already know most of it. But, uhm... I sometimes like to imagine how it would feel to have non-human body parts touching me. So... it seems I'm lucky, right?" Senecio smiled.

[VisAnastasis]

Demon trembled a little with the feeling the words brought, and very slowly, he seemed to be exploring it, and opening up about the subject, his crippling fear dissolving a bit by bit, as with every actor's casual and even welcoming reaction to his anxieties, his hopes of acceptance were slowly, timidly growing.

" Well, when you say you like *pain*, that's the really wide area with a lot of space for guessing, and I always feel like you'd rather have me guess than be concrete... But this is a little more specific, " Tide finally smiled a little more softly, and admitted, with a more wholesome timid voice. " It is not solely about lovemaking... but I swear, while this form is really comfortable, normally I am really not wearing it all the time. But... if we are talking about lovemaking in general... " he paused, before adding his third suggestion quietly. " When it comes to being touched, this form is more used to it... But when it is the other way around... I enjoy to do it with other forms sometimes. Uhmm... I really like forms where I have multiple hands because I like being able to do more things at once and because I have that whole, enjoying to rub my scent all over the partner... likewise, for some reason, I really like doing it in more fluid jelly-like form, because I can envelop my partners really close, but I don't have the muscle strength to hurt them. It is... a guilty pleasure thought, but... since jelly forms can't digest anything and isn't strong enough to crush anything, in it, it is most fun to fantasize about devouring... because I know I literally can't do it," he said with a blush. " As for your... inquiry specifically... I have various different forms I like, but * non-human body parts* is still a vague way to phrase it... I am not sure what exactly would you be imagining... " he seemed a little distracted from lust, temporarily at least, as he seriously tried to solve it, like a puzzle with clues. " Anything non-human can technically be a non-human body part. I mean, just differently build hands, tentacles, jelly hands, more fin-like things... I mean... you really are great at being incredibly vague and specific in the same time. It's like, a hidden talent... "

[Mirach]

"Um, okay... I'll try to be more specific. What I imagine is claws. Or hard parts, like the form you wore on the roof when you thought I was Lorenzo. Tentacles, for restraining. Fur. I admit I've never thought of jelly... might be worth a try, though."

[VisAnastasis]

" Claws... hard parts... tentacles, fur... jelly... I have all those somewhere... " Tide was making a mental list carefully, looking thoughtful, as if he were mentally comparing his forms to the requirements, as probably, most forms had one or two of these things, but not all at once. Suddenly, he snorted, looking embarrassed. " Oh, damn... I almost forgot that when it comes to less refined, less human forms, I have much more control over the output than common Beings... So silly of me. I do have forms with some of the features, but I can actually just... you know... make a new form for this specific purpose? I can not do just anything, I do not have full creative freedom like it's a drawing - for example, jelly-like forms are incompatible with forms with furr and hard parts. But still, we may be able to mix up something interesting to use, " as he realized how enthusiastically he was talking about the possibility, it seemed it tipped a scale of his uncertainty, and Tide finally made a choice. " Next time... when we figure out the health thing... " he said finally, with slowly budding confidence. " Let's... do it with another form. So far, that first form I've shown you was by accident because I thought you were Lorenzo, and so far, I've only shown you a cuddly puppy form... and who wouldn't like cuddling a puppy? I think... " he finally admitted it. " I think I am ready to try... showing you forms that are less cuddly, but still me. We will just need to decide where to start... "

[Mirach]

"Hell yes," Senecio grinned and kissed Tide on the lips. But it was a chaste kiss, undemanding. "So what do we do about the health thing? I have no patience for months or years of taking some medicine..."

[VisAnastasis]

Tide trembled a little with a direct kiss, still feeling a touch tense with them after he had to breathe into his dead body that day, but the kiss was short and full of enthusiasm and despite a little anxiety, the biggest feeling it brought was pleasure and pride in the choice, as he grew even more certain it is the right one.

" Let's see... To be honest... While we could find some less invasive middle ground... I don't really want to. I know I always leave choices like those to you... But I have to be honest with myself. It's not really about you having to drink the medicine for long  i would have remembered to give it to you every day. But... It's about avoiding phosical activity in near future. I really don't think either of us is strong enough to defeat temptations like those every day. " He said unexpectedly, with flushed cheeks and decent amount of worry and resignation." It's just.... When we are seperate, you are brilliant, and I am responsible... But when we are together, we suddenly become really stupid sometimes. I don't think we can wait too long, because every time we are supposed to speak of emotional things we just grow even more impatient and eager to raise your blood pressure. How.... Do you feel about that operation, honestly, though?" He asked seriously and solemnly, as next question, from all that day, seemed really vital to him to know Senecio's true feelings on." There had to be a reason you initially asked for more time to think it through... Do you want to talk about it? Does the idea... Remind you on some unpleasant past things? Or is it a general hesitance in front of an extreme solution?"

[Mirach]

"I'd just like to have a clear idea about it. Eros would remove the things that don't belong in the body, you would take care of the blood, Death would do the healing... but who would do the cutting?" Senecio asked.

[VisAnastasis]

" Oh... You see... With his ability to see how your body is from within, Eros is best fit for that, too. It is true he will do lot of multitasking, thugh, but he is used to it. He controls chemicals in your body, so he can prepare it best for whatever he is doing, and he can work fast, since ge doesn't have to physically move everything. A lot is done through his abilities. He can not exactly move water at will in the same way as me... It is more like he can move chemicals how he prefers. And since chemicals are in all tiny bits of information the body, he can sort of manipulate flesh to move as he likes. It would be creepy to call it flesh bending but you could do so. He can make a clean cut with a thin knife, have your flesh open up to reveal the internal injury, and then do what he can for it chemically, and scrape off the foreign substance, and then, with my water bending, since it's all mushy, I can collect the waste and remove it, while in the same time controling and minimizing blood loss - it's important that I take part, too, for that reason, because he couldn't do much for deeper more severe injuries if I were not preventing blood loss and controlling heart and lungs from getting overwhelmed." Being explained with more cheery, prideful tone." Then, Eros can use his influence over chemicals to close the wound perfectly, and then, I would keep blood pressure stable while he sews... We have actually been doing such things for couple decades now. Hans  finds people current human medicine can't help, but are worth saving in his eyes, and we have Eros examine if there is anything that can be done. Sometimes we can, sometimes can't, but when we can, we work together on it. Eros really grew much more confident with time, and he's really great. With his insane perception and precision, he can basically isolate damaged part and remove it on levels of cells... I... Actually really liked it in the past, before I had to... Do those things on a dead instead of living body. But still, it was always satisfying  to know we were able to better and extend a human life. I learned a lot through it... "

[Mirach]

"Okay..." Senecio murmured. "It sounds a bit scary, but I don’t have to be awake for it, do I?"

[VisAnastasis]

" Of course not. Eros has power over chemicals, you know... he can just force your body to sleep, prevent you from waking up, temporarily paralize your muscles, and then block the pain reception of the brain, so whatever happens to your body, your brain won't register the damage," ge offered information readily, growing a little worried as he suddenly realised." Oh... Well, it does sound scary when I out it like that... Are you scared because it's done by Eros? If you don't trust him so much, it's understandable you would be suspicious of his... Skills and methods..."

[Mirach]

"I might not be fond of him, but I trust him in that," Senecio said. "But it sounds scary anyway. I guess I'll just try to not think about it much. You just need to talk to Death to see if he's available, right?"

[VisAnastasis]

" He's not really doing anything, other than eating and staring into the distance... So I hope he will be available. I can go ask him. But are you really, 100, 100% sure?" He still insisted quietly." Do you need more time to take it in? I told you, even when it's something I want, if it's too fast and scary, I won't like it... It's fine if we don't rush it," ge proclaimed resolutely." I don't want to throw a traumatic event on you like this. We can always try to find middle ground..."

[Mirach]

"What middle ground?" Senecio asked. "It sounds scary, but will not get less so with waiting. Possibly the contrary... I'd like to get it over with as soon as possible. I don't want a reminder of Guilermo inside my body."

[VisAnastasis]

Tide understood with it, growing serious and determined, as he sow that prolonging the treatment may just have worse effect on Senecio mentally, to be constantly aware that what is happening to you is a result of your abuser's actions - and even without flashing loving and warm streaks in his aura, it was obvious he was determined to support him.
" Do you want us to do it right away, then, if we can?" He asked attentively." If Death agrees, Eros just has to drop by Janus to pick the tools. And... Do you want us to do it here? If you feel safer in this room, we can. It's regrettable, but I am sure Hans won't wake up today, so we won't be bothering him..."

[Mirach]

"Well, I don’t want to rush it too much," Senecio said. "I suppose you'd have to get ready and discuss things... but once you're all ready, I'd like to do it as soon as possible, it doesn’t really matter where."

[VisAnastasis]

" I can lead Eros to Death, so we can all talk through it and decide everything and just come here to you when we are ready?" Tide asked." Where would you like to be while you wait? Here or somewhere else? If you are staying here I can find you a companion first. Alpha is busy, he is working on order right now, but we could still find someone else to keep you company."

[Mirach]

"Could I still go to the theatre and talk to Janus?" Senecio asked.

[VisAnastasis]

" You know what? How about we go to Janus together, I pick up the tools, and you stay and talk to Janus, and I come to pick you up to after Eros, Death and I finish the talk?" Demon suggested." That way you can properly rest and talk and keep busy, while we prepare."

[Mirach]

"Okay, thay sounds good," Senecio nodded. 

[VisAnastasis]

" Have you, umh... calmed down a little?" Demon asked shyly, coughing."' What Eros said is true... I would love to carry you around all the time, but I don't want to excite you more and make it difficult for us..."

[Mirach]

Senecio chuckled. "Yeah, mostly. Maybe I could try eating something light first, though."

[VisAnastasis]

" If we are going to do operation soon, you shouldn't eat anything too heavy, yes. Eat the minimum that you can muster. Maybe some nice soup? Or sone bread and cheese? Some light cookies? Hans keeps some cheeses and cookies you like as of recent in his backpack, we can also take some of those."