Re: Svarik and the company II

[Mirach]

"Not your usual love poem about your beloved one's eyes being like stars and so on," Semecio nodded. "The sincerity is refreshing. I like it..."

[VisAnastasis]

" Oh, I love sparkly eyes, too. Sparkly eyes like stars are good as well. This one for example, makes my eyes sparkle as I read it... " Tide stuttered shyly, and he slowly turned the pages to his second choice, a poem called:

" I imagine."


I imagine.
When I do,
I can only think of you,
How your smile spreads to your eyes,
Making me want to live in the moment forever.
I imagine
That we walk on paths,
Unknown to us,
Filled with fear and excitement,
Winding with happiness that is constant.
I imagine
That we see the dawn,
Bursting with resplendent hues,
And birds soaring in the sky,
Inviting us to hum along.
I imagine
That we break rules,
Do things our own way,
Travel the world,
To leave our traces.
I imagine
A cold winter night,
In your arms,
Watching the snow,
Sitting at the window.
I imagine
The story of us
Has no end
Or beginning,
But continues like the universe.
I imagine
I could fill your heart,
With all my love,
So that we know a love,
Mysterious to this world.
I imagine
And wonder,
What you would imagine,
With a smile extending to my eyes."

[Mirach]

"A nice one as well," Senecio nodded thoughtfully. 

[VisAnastasis]

" That makes it two. I have one more choice left... " Tide nodded, but he was quiet then. Through the mask, it seemed, he was watching young man intently, his thoughts unreadable, indistinguishable, concealed, underneath dim light of distant stars. He seemed to gradually work up his courage and resolve, before slowly turning the page of his last choice, this time, observing very keenly for actor's reaction, his hand trembling a little as he turned to the right page, containing poem named  "In Love With You":


I want to tell you how I feel about you,
but I am afraid to
for you might not feel the same way
I want to kiss you,
but I am afraid to
for you might pull away
I want to tell you to hold me,
but I am afraid to
for you might look away
I want to tell you I want to be more than friends,
but I'm afraid to
for you might walk out of my life forever

[Mirach]

Dňa 7. 5. 2017 21:43 používateľ "VisAnastasis [via Cherrizon 2]" <[hidden email]> napísal:

" That makes it two. I have one more choice left... " Tide nodded, but he was quiet then. Through the mask, it seemed, he was watching young man intently, his thoughts unreadable, indistinguishable, concealed, underneath dim light of distant stars. He seemed to gradually work up his courage and resolve, before slowly turning the page of his last choice, this time, observing very keenly for actor's reaction, his hand trembling a little as he turned to the right page, containing poem named  "In Love With You":


I want to tell you how I feel about you,
but I am afraid to
for you might not feel the same way
I want to kiss you,
but I am afraid to
for you might pull away
I want to tell you to hold me,
but I am afraid to
for you might look away
I want to tell you I want to be more than friends,
but I'm afraid to
for you might walk out of my life forever

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[Mirach]

"I can understand the writer, but he shouldn't be afraid," Senecio said slowly. "Well, afraid he can be, but he should still find the courage to ask. What is there to lose if you ask? A moment of embarassment, that's all. But if you don't ask, you can lose a love. I think it's worth it, to ask. Especially if you are going to die and don't have to worry about the long-term."

[VisAnastasis]

" Well, alright. If it doesn't hurt to ask, I shall ask... " the demon whispered quietly. His voice broke a little, as despite saying it like that, it was still hard to ask, and he stuttered a little at first, before he spoke up finally. " So.. I guess... I can put it like that... Are you... Available? "

[Mirach]

"Would you really want that?" Senecio asked with surprise. "I am a criminal and liar... If you are looking for love and not a one-night stand, I don't understand why you would want me. Everybody I have been with was just looking for the second. An actor has to be a bit of a whore to get into the right circles and get the good roles before making a name for himself. Um... I'm just telling you in case you would want to recomsider... because if not... I like you, too, and I am avaliable... just for a short time, maybe..."

[VisAnastasis]

" I might be available just for a short time, maybe, too, so it's only fair. I do not deem myself liar, but I am criminal in my own right, too. You think I never killed, you think I never deceived others to save my own skin? " Tide asked him quietly. " I am a survivor of most terrible brutal war there ever was. My biggest crime was being alive, and whole world was set of to punish me for it... And so I was forced to become bigger criminal, in order to live. I am telling you this, too, in case you would want to reconsider... "

[Mirach]

"I don't care and I don't want to," Senecio said. "I would just like to see yo without the mask. I wore enough of them myself..."

[VisAnastasis]

" It is a part of me. It is not hiding who I really am. Just something that makes me comfortable. Just... something that makes people around me comfortable. " he paused, before adding vulnerably. " You said... You liked me. All the time, you say words so lightly... but I believe you this once. Through, I am afraid... " he admitted. " This, truly, by accident, happens to be a form I most often use, when I try to impress... to charm... it is form I have that is most formal, most refined, most human.... but I can not hide some things even in it. It takes a strange wired mind, I figured, like minds of listeners, to look into my eyes, and not be terrified. We just met, and you are just starting to like me. I am afraid.. " he said quietly. " That you may catch a glimpse of less human me, and like me less for it... You wouldn't be the first... "

[Mirach]

"I am not a listener, but I think my mind is weird. I like terrifying things... I found your other form fascinating, and I really hoped to see more of your forms. Keep the mask, if it makes you comfortable, but I imagine it can't be that comfortable to be afraid of what will happen jf you put it down. Don't you want to risk it and get rid of the fear and uncertainty?"

[VisAnastasis]

" I hoped... I may do it... When you get to see me... more human... When you get more used to me... When your heart tells you, no, this is okay, even though your mind screams in terror... I hoped... Maybe time can.. make it better.. I hoped... " creature was murmuring fearfully, with heart tense, unprepared, not ready to be revealed - but mind that indeed, was in pain, unsatably curious, having to know. He spoke, excuses, timidly, all while he was slowly taking it of and  letting the beautiful carved mask slip.... Until finally revealing his face. and two terrifying bright foamy eyes, filled with waves and reflecting light of skies, two eyes most inhumane, indeed, looked straight into Senecio, fierce, passionate, wavy and ever changing, feeling as if staring directly into your soul - old, horrifying, unapologetically wrong.... and maybe a little sad.

[Mirach]

Senecio shivered a little, but did not look away, feeling the ancient terror of a small creature looking into the eyes of a predator, or of a man faced with the vastness and chaotic forces of the universe, but in the same time fascination with them, a strange thrill and desire. He was not able to put that feeling into words, and so he just leaned closer, and slowly caressed the features of Tide's face.

[VisAnastasis]

The eyes, those terrifying, stary eyes, grew cloudy with tears at an unexpected gesture, filled with astonishment.
" Are you not... afraid? " Tide's lip trembled with surprise. " Or are you... really... that... amazing actor... That you don't notice my ugliness? " he chuckled at a joke hoarsely, but he did not look away, his eyes tightly locked on the man.

[Mirach]

"I am afraid," Senecio whispered. "It's thrilling, to be afraid like that."

[VisAnastasis]

" I would never hurt you... " Tide whispered back to him. " I evolved to be dangerous, for world I lived in was dangerous... It is me, but looks are deceiving. I am not dangerous. I am gentle and kind, I was just given a very bad role in this world to play, and a very ugly costume...  I am good, and kind, and I am a hopeless romantic... I just don't look the part..." he stuttered hoarsely, as he slowly, hesitantly, extended his mighty hand that could crush skull without a trouble - and slowly and gently caressed the lad's cheek.

[Mirach]

Senecio froze for a moment, just watching those eyes. Then he slowly started leaning towards them until he almost touched Tide's lips with his. But then he stopped, not wanting to be intrusive, giving the demon the choice to withdraw. 

[VisAnastasis]

Contact and intimacy for demons, just like for spirits, seem to be something more sacred, something not done without permission.
" If it's... okay.. to ask... May I...? " Tide whispered, as their lips almost brushed together... And the next moment already, his hand run across actor's hair, as he timidly closed his eyes and leaned toward him, in a kiss, ever shy, timid, and clumsy in his nervousness.

[Mirach]

In this night, Senecio felt truly  free for the first time in his life, and he was decided to live the shorness of time left to him fully. He kissed the demon with passion, losing himself in the present moment.

[VisAnastasis]

Despite it was something to be expected, Tide still seemed astonished at the free act of the man, coming to him so naturally, as if he was being with just another normal guy, not a primordial creature of darkness. That simple act of normality and acknowledgment seemed to really mean much for the demon, and his aura, bright and pure under surge of joy, flowed around and lingered in the air, as he returned the kiss more passionately.

[Mirach]

Senecio was content to spend the rest of his life like this, and he didn't withdraw until Tide did.

[VisAnastasis]

The kiss lasted, but after a moment, Tide slowed it down and gradually let it end, and withdrawn shyly. His hand still remained on Senecio's shoulder, though, as he smiled lightly again at him, tilting head toward him with some new shy fondness.
" Even... Even if you didn't pursue love for long, I am sure you are familiar with... the etiquette... " demon stuttered, looking at him still, with those enlightened eyes foamy like the ocean, and sparkling with unexpected thrill like waves. " That is... I told you I am old fashioned... So... That is to say, for tonight... " he whispered with still little bathed breath, as he added, as if still fascinated and astonished that it turned like this. " ...you can not expect anything but a kiss, on the first date... "

[Mirach]

"What about the last date?" Senecio asked a bit sadly, withdrawing as well. He looked down, so the demon wouldn't see his face, but I quiet sob revealed that he was crying. "I didn't want any bonds... so that when I fail, nobody would miss me... And then in the last moment I do this... to both of us... I'm sorry..."

[VisAnastasis]

" You are sorry, because you don't trust me, that this won't be our last date... " Tide whispered. He did not invade his privacy and demand for his look and attention, he just very lightly caressed his cheek, drying one of the falling tears. " I will speak with the king. I have seen into his heart and soul, and I have seen that it is good. I won't let anything happen to you before he allows me to talk of this, so please, do have a little bit of faith in me, okay? " demon smiled sadly. " If anyone is selfish, it's me, not you... I am the one, who is trying so hard, to save life of enemy that's going to kill me as soon as he finds out of me. I am the one, that has a week, maybe two. I am selfish one. "